It seems like we do this ever year. The difference this year is I turned 40. I think the one thing I've realized this year is just how fast the rest of my life is going to go. Good or bad, the reality that this is my life settles on my mind like gum stuck on the bottom of my shoe, crammed deep down in the crevasse always and forever. I have not decided whether I am either happy or the less, just that I now know the secret of what they were trying to tell me when I was still young.